Imagine with me if you will…. Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you…and I ordained you.”
Imagine being married for 15 years and wanting to have a baby but not being able to conceive. Fifteen long years of praying and hoping to have your very own child to love and hold. Friends, family and the acquaintances begin raising their own children. Seeing new babies being born to friends at church. At holiday gatherings, everyone asking, “When are you going to try to have a baby?”
Hearing this question year after year, you know it’s an honest question but they don’t know that it cuts your heart like a knife.
Over time, family members thoughtfully stopped asking and the question faded away. But inevitably new friends, business people and school teachers would invariably ask, “When are you going to have a baby?” No one really understands that pain until they have been there. It was against this painful backdrop of total desperation and dependence upon God that we: waited, prayed and hoped.
I think those lonely years of patience, pain and waiting have allowed me and Robin to think about and understand in some degree what it might be like to be an orphan.
Have you ever just thought about that? To be alone. To be abandoned. To not be wanted. Not to mention the cruel cold hardships of homelessness as a young child in the cold, in the heat, being hungry, thirsty. The reality of being used, abused, mistreated on a daily basis.
The hollow feeling of abandonment far outweighs the temporary abuse of the natural world as your heart longs for and cries out for a living, loving, caring Savior. Connection, closeness, bonding, union-these desires allude you with the reminder as rapid as your beating yet fading heart that deep down you are alive and that God given light is waiting to be discovered.
In the midst of your despair, desperation and pain, you find…The beginning of the Call. The Call of God is eternal. It waits for you when you are ready to step into it. The Call of God looks different for everyone. I will blog soon about my journey about “our journey.” God is patient. From being a banker and supporter in the ministry of helps to stepping into the role of “Building Lives” with Child of Purpose; it is humbling and amazing indeed!
The Rest Of The Story……
On November 6, 2010 Robin writes on Facebook: “I took my Little Princess to eat at Red Robin today. We then went to Woodland Hills Mall to ride the Carousel. Yes, we did ride it three times again! After that, we went to the Disney Store and bought some more Snow White toys to add to our extensive collection. God is Good! Great times!”
After 15 years of infertility, Darren and Robin DeLozier, adopted their daughter Alexandra from an orphanage in Semey, Kazakhstan, in 2007. Since that time with a strong leading from God, they have formed Child of Purpose, Inc.
They believe that God has a PURPOSE for not only the orphaned children of Haiti, Indonesia, and Kazakhstan, but for all children everywhere. Their goal through Child Of Purpose, Inc. is to help children find their PURPOSE in God.